Otherwise id continue to get swallowed up in the sadness. I lost my dad 4 months almost 5 months ago. Thank you. Our dedicated Editorial team verifies each of the articles published on the Biographyhost. "Allman breaks North American discus record with 71.46m in La Jolla". My mom passed of a heart attack. I've also found that unless you've lost someone close to you, then you just don't understand and you can't. Thank you and God bless you Wnd bless your famil. Grief never leaves you its always there just a little more MANAGEABLE. Youre incredibly strong. Your post was beautiful. And keep up the good work. I'm 75% Lebanese, 25% English, Irish and Scottish. By: Caroline John - Published: June 9, 2021 at 7:01 am. im in one more glass of wine and hot bath phase. Thank you for Opening your heart. THank you for sharing! i do see dolphins thoUgh and When i Dothey Are glorIous! The grief that my family haS been going through has been so painful. Has been extremely hard on us all as a faMily! Ipray for you and your Mom. Thank you for sharing!!. I was 16 and forced to grow up, and Felt lonely a lot of the time dealing wIth the grief. Do it for the people who arent here to do it with you. i cant stop reading this over and over. Courtney is a musician, blogger, and designer living in Austin, Texas. You are so stronG & an amazing daughter, wife, mom,& fRIenD!! They revealed that they were discovered by an unidentified source and that Jessi Afshin, a podcaster and another social media star, may have had a role. Thank you for posting this. Thank you so much for sharing. And its so true. But i know everything will be easier. Recently, rumours about a possible clash between two such influencers, Courtney Shields and Emily Herren, surfaced online. but seriously who the are these people? Thank you so much for sharing this journey with us!!! My mom passed away fRom cancer in June 2018. , I toO, Am a member of this unEnviable club. He had PULMONARY fibrosus. Reading your bLog post gives me hope & strength, KnowIng that this grief will eventually get better with time. Thank you for being honest and raw i needed this more than i even realized after multiple losses in the past few Years and its so Amazing to see everything put into words and hear another say that they know tHeyll see their loved Ones again. I'm definitely different but that's OKAY. She earnedherbachelor's degree in music from Berklee College of Music. Afshin was heard talking about a friendship betrayal on her podcast,My Darling Diary, in March 2021. -WHOOPING COUGH]] I could have substituted Dad for Mom and wRitten this post myself. I lost my brother almost 7 years ago. People may not need anything but you're presence at the moment! Name Purchase Date Ticket; Alistair Simpson : February 27th: 49: Alistair Simpson : February 27th: 179: Alistair Simpson : February 27th: 1850: Alistair Simpson . Celebrities. Ugh I hate her. He was my person. I just found this so apologies if this has been discussed previously! Very beautifully raw and PoIgnant. The trillions of emotions that coursed through my veins. Thank you for sharing and for your wisdom and vulnerability! sENDING ALL THE LOVE YOUR WAY! i lost my brother 5 years ago, my dad last year and my boyfriend's dad is currently dying of cancer. Grief does look different for us all. He was my whole world. TOday You shared this post. On. Opens my eyes that its going to be ok. . God bless you & your Family. Thank you. xoxo. I lost my dad when i was 8 years oLd. its not easy but its so true. See i never knew my father so my granddad was like a father to me. It DEFINITELY helped to see that I wasnt alone in my grief & that other people were also sufferinG with their own loss! I just kept going. I did have the chanCe to sell everything and live with my parents for the Sole purpose of taking care of my mother whole she was dying. there's a reason behind all of this even though in the moment we don't see it. you are a light in a world of darkness to so many people; i am sure of it! My mother and father were married 56 years at my fathers passinG. I have often described something similar to your analogy with the ocean when it comes to grief but never have i ever stated it so eloquently. SUch an amazing post, that anyone can rElate to even if you HAVEN'T lost abyone. Its hard to lose somebody who has had such an impact on your life, somebody who made you into The person you are today. COVID-19 Impact: Emily's Recovery Story - Herren Wellness. The more obviously saw that Emily Herren had stopped following Shields on social media. Courtney so very well said..Our family went Through something very similiar to you and your Dad..we are a very close family also..my mother was a Very smart, talente, beautiful lady and everybody loved her..she was DIAGNOSED with cancer and beat it and Then sadly here comEs ALZHEIMER'S..It totally changed her personAlity and appearance.. my oldest granddaughter was extremely close to her..My mothEr been gone 4 years now and my grand is having to Go to counseling now..shes juSt never been aBle to Deal with it..thanks so much for sharing your personal and true feelings..im so sorry you and Alex had to experience this at such a young age..love and prayers to all.. Courtney, im not going through grief at the moment, but im so glad you were brave enough to put thia out there. Grief never goes away, we just learn how to live with it. Her glamorous, casual, and much chic manner blogging became more and more democratic in the early phase of her life. This stirred a lot of those memories and all the feelings of grief. @Leelee8310, This piece was so BEAUTIFULLY written. You dust off all the sand and ring the salty water out of your hair, but theres still sand left in places you cant see and your hair is a little wetthe sand rubs in spots and the texture of your hair is different but youre finally safe on shore. I go on i stagram to get good recommendations and truthfully i love watching listening and learning from you beautiful bloggers. Im still STRUGGLE with his loss. -LOW SPERM COUNT]] One moment we were laughing and the next moment he was gone. When my mother in law passed my dad died 4 months later, my sis a month later. Xoxo, Absolutely incredible post. WiThout feEling any pain. Thank you for sharing. -PILE]] You put into worDs what i feel in my soUl. He, too, was a self proclaimed renaissance man and we all thought actually looked like the Dos Equis guy. I lost my mom this past SEPTEMBER to canCer and Your Post has been the most relatable and real message everyone grieving Needs. BOth so suDDen and Both gone within 6 moNths of FINDING out! This was beautifully raw and i truly felt it. xoxo. Then, you learn to drive the boat, navigate your new normal and you start to head to the shore. I lost my daughter 2016 and it's still hard for me today. I am not sad about his death but more about his torture That he went through which was supposed to be the beat time in your life. I appreciate you sharing your jour! The picture you painted With the swimming anD the sand is absolutely perfect. In the episode, titled Dear Mean Girl(s), Afshin talks about someone she considers a friend having a party where she didnt invite Afshin. I think about them eVery day and try to find the joy and all the great memories sO i can share - or not. The year started off so joyous and the rest has been filled with sorrow, fear, stress, and exhaustion. I aCtually just sent this to a Amazing friend who lost her husband suddenly at a very young age! Wow. You alWAys seem so upbeat on your posts, i had no idea the pain and grief you were going Through. If it has, please reply to the existing parent . Keep doing big things giRl and keep lovIng your family hard! Over this past weekend, I made the decision to end my engagement and relationship. Thank you, i cannot state that enough. I cant explain In words what this pOst means to me. So thank you for the reminder that it will get easier and sometimes we just have to ride the waves of life. Youre appreciated so much by so many. Thank God for that. Hugs!! , I am sooo Very Sorry for your loss. He was a police officer in Lubbock and was killed in the line of duty. She has risen to massive popularity for her glamorous, casual, and often chic fashion blogging, and has . My mom and sister were eight days apart. Thanks for sharing a part of who you are. Courtney Shields 01.13.20. He was an organ donor and saved many with that one yes to being an organ donor. Seattle Anchor, Travis Mayfield Leaving KCPQ. wow what a rush of horrible emotions and in that particular Mom I need to wake up and realize that I had decisions to make some of which were very poor decisions but now that I am almost 50 years old I have three amazing children and I do still register the fact that my mother is above in heaven looking down on me. my parents, like yours, were married 30 plus years when my dad passed so my mom was grieving the same way as your mom was. I lost her while i was Engaged and less than a year from our wedding. Why are Emily and Courtney Shields not friends anymore? Wow. You become who you want to be. Love you, your realness, and you being vulnerable. Emily stands tall, 5 feet 5 inches, and of modal weight. Not sure if that makes sense. I lost my dad a month Ago and its so nice to just feel understood. Words that are resonating and relatable. I miss him so. This is all still speculation, but it was fueled by a recent episode of Shields podcast,Badass Basic Bitch. You JUSt summarized everything so well! This is beautiful and spot on. Kim drops major hints in Instagram story, UK: Palace aides want Harry and Meghan to give up royal titles after controversial podcast, What did Kwame Brown say? Fans of podcast hosts and influencers Courtney Shields and Emily Herren noticed unusual social media activity between the supposed friends. How you describeD your emotions is BASICALLY identical to me. This is such a beautifully written piece filled with amazing imagery and eMotion. What she earns from her internet job in terms of cash and extras is still a mystery, though. Wow!!! . Never sMoked drank anything. You can help us build Emily Herrens dating records! emily herren courtney shields. THank you CourtneY. So sorry to hear about the loss of AlExs brother i lost my dad in 2004 When i was 13. This is amazing and spot on. I lost my mom unexpectEdly two and a haLf years ago and its still so hard. , Thank you So much! It is SOMEHOW a comfort knowing someone else out there gets it and feels what you have felt and still feel To you on those tough days because yep iT gets easier, but can Still hit you like a ton of bricks out of nOwhere! You got tHis! just to talk to . Now, when i hear a song she loved i will break down while singing it out loud. My daughter is hAving a very hard time. I am so sorry for yours And aLexs loss. I lost my dad 24 years agO and I continue to miss him so! -STROKE]] Great writing. just know that this blog post will help so many. Thank you fOr being so open and honest wIth your life abs for being reAl. Emily is . It was so POWERFUL andI IMAGINE very THERAPEUTIC for youand so many others. it brought me to my knees. I can't imagine tHe strength it took to write this, but thank you. When she first passed iT was a strange sense of relief. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. Thank you , This really hit home With me. Powerful and amazing. Wow! Thank you! It's witty, sarcastic, or irreverent commentary. January 16th was the 18th anniversary of my BROTHERs passing. You bring a little sunshine to every day. While is has been an EXTREMELY hard thing to process we choose Daily to see the blessings. Hi Courtney! I was in tears reading this. In Katy, Texas, USA, Emily Herren was born on June 29, 1994. This cannot be realhow could this happen to the most kind, generous, loving man, my hero!.. I decided to thrive. I lost a dad, but she lost her husband, her partner for the past 30+ years, and I wanted to respect that and let her go through the process in her own way. YoUr blog is amazing and real. Thank you so Much for writing this. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. I love your posts. , Beautifully written, so real and yet sweet and soUlful. I feel anxious all the time and i do nOt feel like that happy lady i was before! This was perfect. You depicted what i went through very well. On August 4th, Courtney confirmed that she and her fiance, Ishaan, have split and called off their engagement. This was so beautifully written!!! Your words were so well thought out, honest and heartbreaking. Last january, i lost my DAughter due to stillbirth aNd i have been struggling to put it into words. This was so good. I still feel like im trying to make it to shore, but knowing that im getting closer is everything! Long time Follower, It was very gard on my child. I lost my mom suddenly, who was my best friends too, at the age of 20. Thanks for sharing your journey <3, I loSt my dad 6 months ago and i feel so heartbroken. Thank you so much for sharing your heart. I honestly did not take my dads death very well and he was 90 but if He lived to be a 100 it was not Long enough for me! It was from him and the only thing i Cry about is that i felt like my huSband has lost part of him but thats not it at all. Beautiful. <3, thank you Courtney for sharing SOMETHING so deep and peRsonal. Shields is also a musician and has released two singles, 'Miss You Sometime' and 'Messy,' in 2019. Wow that made me cry so sorry for your loss my best friend of 35 years died last August and it broke me more THEN I thought it was gping too thank you for sharing its so true grief changes you when she died I was for 3 days before she died and the day she passed away I left the move and she went to be with Jesus its so important to love deeply let the small stuff go learning that thanks again for SHARING your amazing, Thanks for sharIng. There Is sand in lots of places, my hair is sorta consistently weT, and i have two teenagers Im treAding water with At times. Courtney Shields is an entrepreneur, musician, blogger, and social media influencer. Much love. Death makes you see..feelknow-your blessings. I thank you for writing this and ASSURING me i am not alone noR going about Grief the wrong Way. Thank you for that. Holidays were terrible although we put on happy faces for tHe giRls (who are doing very well actually, now). Everyone should read this, it's a major eye/heart opener. I lost My dad last 2019 and my brother six Months ago.LOVED yo story, THank you for sharing your story. Thats what life is all about really, isnt it? Im so up and down all the time. I will save a space and hold it for you in hopes that it will ease those moments when the pain hits you out of the blue and brings you back to day 1. My aunt decidEd we would No longer get together and we wEre not good enough for her. Honestly, i have never truLy experienced grief. This holiday Season has been very trying. It was unexpected and He was such a person that lived every minute. Thank you for this! And another sister has bone cancer. My mom lived with me and when she got bad we had hospice care At my house. Herren was born on June 29, 1994 in Katy, Texas, in the USA. So many great THemes. Love this so much!!! Thanjs for sharing! You said so many things that i have never been able to form Into wOrds. Thank you for being so honest and putting your heart into this. I lost my dad to cancer and he was 55 (2000) my mom will be gone 2 years next month dying suddenly from a heart attack at 72. I ballEd like a baby reading but i could relate 1000x!! It helps to share. I lost my dad when i was 16 and i grieved differently then everyone else. I was amazed because this was another example Of how my Dad Shared his blEssings with oThers. My Mom helped and so did my brother. I loved this women to pIeces. Edited to add: when did Emily delete her Instagram? I lost my dad a year ago and have been struggling to find the right outlet. Its still so new, but im trYing to figure out this new normal. Somedays i thrIve and smile and live fully. It was beautiful and i cried through the entire thing Because i can truly relate with EVERYTHING you said. So sorry fOr the Loss of alex brother prayers you get throgh it togeter. Its as though those memories can never be taken from us and they are so near and dear to our heartS. Mentioned in this episode: Olivia Rink / @oliviarink Shannan Bird / @birdalamode Dede Raad / @dressupbuttercup Emily Herren / @champagneandchanel Courtney Shields / @courtneyshields Jessi Afshin / @jessi_afshin Krystal Faircloth / @krystal.faircloth Taryn Newton / @tarynnewton Mary Beth Wilhelm / @livinwithmb Amber Massey / @masseya Ashley . thank you for sharing your story. All so true. A huge hug to you. And EVeryone grieves DIFFERENTLY. Apart from her music career, Courtney has focused on her social media career as an Instagram personality and YouTuber. When a heart GROWS wings, its LIKE a butterfly being transFormed into BEAUTIFUL , Thank you so much for writing this. You have truly put it in perspective for me. They disclosed that an nameless beginning found them, that it may have had something to do with another sociable media influencer and podcaster named Jessi Afshin. After 6 mOnths of the worst treatment, she lost her battle here on earth. My father in law is about to pass away from a battle with pancreatIc cancer. The loss i feel is so great and there Were and are times i have to push myself to get through the day. Lost my dad only 6 MONTHS ago and eveyday is a struggle. Not a day goes by whEre i Dont regret not being there more for her. Ive never been through anything like tHis before and i cry almost daily. Xo Julz. I reaLly appreciate your honestly and so sorry for your losses. Emily 01.14.20. Stylowi.pl Inspiracje. Every now and then a storm will come that blows you backwards a little, but you keep on going, following the light. I was a mom of a 6 month old baby at the time, so I woke up and went about my life, feeling like I was in a haze. <3. Courtney, thank you somuch for sharing THIS. Theres three things you can do when life sends a wave at you. April, I love the part about being in the ocean-it has felt that way for me. I know that with every fiber of my being. Its a beautiful posT Courtney. Thank you for putting human eMOTION into such eloquent words. I really needed To read this. I often get asked if it ever gets better? I just miss him so much and Wish he was around, They are always with us Thank you so much for sharing. So well written. There is a deep breathe and shore in my future. May God bless you . Swipe up to snark on your favorite bloggers, influencers, and everything else on the internet! Battling stage 4 OVARIAN fOr the past 6 years when She was onlY giVen 18 months. Don't EVER blame another. Do what you love with who you love. And your description of loss is exactly how i have felt and continue to Feel. October 11, 2022 October 5, 2022 by John Groove. We all know we are not alone but still need to be validated that we're going to be okay. Thank you for your post and your honesty about grief. I too, know without one doubt in my soul that my dad is in heaven..safe. I lost my dad To cancer when i was 23 years old And it was the hardest thing i had gone through up until that point. YOU GIRL A RARE DIAMOND XOXOX, Thank you for sharing such a persoal story. Courtney, Thank you for sharing this part Of your life with Us. I love you for sharing this. I still struggle often With the loss of my grandpa 5 years ago, and A brEak up Of a 9 year relationship. He was was 27 yrs old. Shore feels far away. Thank-you! We have so many shared perspectives on grief and creating a new normal, and it's so refreshing and nice to hear someone spell it out so perfectly. Apotential dispute between the two social media influencers, Courtney Shields and Emily Herren, was gossiped about on the Internet.